by Callie Anderson
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Release Date: September 13th, 2016
Blurb:
I’m fucked.
The life I have lived for the past ten years is built solely on lies and secrets.
But I can’t help myself.
I’m in love with two different men. And one of them is my brother-in-law.
He’s my drug. My fire. My addiction.
But he’s married to my best friend. And I’m married to my husband.
I’m not ashamed. I have no guilt.
None.
I’m not fucked. I’m a fucked up person.
This is the story of how I ruined my life.
The life I have lived for the past ten years is built solely on lies and secrets.
But I can’t help myself.
I’m in love with two different men. And one of them is my brother-in-law.
He’s my drug. My fire. My addiction.
But he’s married to my best friend. And I’m married to my husband.
I’m not ashamed. I have no guilt.
None.
I’m not fucked. I’m a fucked up person.
This is the story of how I ruined my life.
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My review:
I can't believe I almost missed out on reading this book! What was I thinking?! I am usually not into cheating stories but damn! this was like one of the best books I've read this year.
The writing was excellent and the story compelling! I didn't even feel
like there was cheating involved because for me there only existed Brie
and Nate and they belonged together. To hell with the other characters.
The
story that’s told from Brie’s and Nate’s POV started in the present but
jumped back over ten years prior when everything began to fall apart. I
loved that the time didn't jump back and forth all the time but that
the past was told all at once. It may seem a bit long for some but it
was really necessary to fully understand the deep love and heartbreak
that's going on as well as the relationship between all four of the
characters and why they made certain decisions that lead to the current
circumstances.
The Story:
Brielle can't
believe she is really about to get help for her husband Julian from his
brother Nate, the man she fell in love with almost eleven years ago.
When Brie sees Nate again after all those years, the flame of love that
has never fully extinct starts to burn brighter again. Was it a mistake
to come here? But she didn't come for Nate's love, she came asking for
help to save her marriage with his brother.
"Love is fucked up. Whoever said it's the most wonderful and beautiful thing in the world is full of shit. I was a straight A student, but when it came to falling in love, I failed miserably. It wasn't that I didn't know how to love. I loved unconditionally and hopelessly. It was simply that I fell in love for the wrong guy. I tried, sweet lord, did I try to fall in love with someone else – anyone else. Hell, I even tried to fall in love with his brother.
Instead, I fell I love with Nate.
Fucked.
I was fucked."
Thoughts:
This
was insane! It was fucking amazing! The writing was perfect and the
characters felt so real. The sexual tension was almost palpable
throughout the whole book! There's just nothing to criticize; this story
was so perfectly created.
I fell in love with the
characters though I got not only frustrated but really sick to the
stomach with anger a few times and I wanted to smack them upside the
head for their stupidity and at how hard they've made their lives for
themselves.
They were so considerate of other people’s feelings
that they diminished their own feelings, put an end to their love and in
return got deceived by those they actually wanted to spare the pain.
This was such a selfless act to put all the pain on you instead of
hurting others. I couldn't believe how self-sacrificing they've been.
"I bowed my head and closed my eyes. I had so much to say, but it wasn’t the time. That’s how things worked between Nate and me. We were never in the same time zone."
I got so
frustrated at times because I desperately wanted Brie and Nate to be
together without a care in the world of other people's feelings. They
just belonged together. Stupid people!
“Your office is red.”
“If it were up to me, I’d paint the whole damn house red. Everything reminds me of you, but the red on the wall reminds me of a night I could never forget. It’s a constant reminder of everything I lost.”
This
was in no way an easy book. I got frustrated, I got sick to the stomach
with anger and I needed something strong - preferably liquor - to go
with it. My emotions were boiling over and my heart ached until the end.
This story really fucked me upside down and I can't get rid of the book
hangover this has caused me.
It’s your own fault if you don’t read this book! Go and read it! I highly recommend it =P
Some more quotes I’d like to share that I loved a lot and won’t give too much away:
A new wave of butterflies fluttered in my stomach, and I couldn't help but smile. It had been so long that I'd forgotten what a first date felt like. The tingling in my stomach. A rush of adrenaline coursed through me. The constant need to make sure I didn't make a complete ass of myself. It was terrifying and exhilarating all at once. It was a feeling that never lasted for long, so when you did experience it, you held your breath hoping it wouldn't go away.
I gnawed on the inside of my lip as I wondered if he was going to kiss me or if it was all my imagination. This was what sucked about a first date. I was having a great time but for all I knew Nate was counting down the seconds to ditch me. It was the not knowing. The power one controlled over you. It caused the butterflies in your stomach to flap their wings and make you crazy.
“I’m being your friend, Brie. Can we be friends?”
We both know that friends didn’t hug the way we hugged, nor did friends have an electrical current running through them when they touched. We couldn’t be friends. We should have been enemies. It would have been easier to hate him than to not fall in love with him.
But we lied.
“Yes.” I sighed. “We can be friends.”
“Sometimes drams are just that – dreams. A small escape from reality. I learned to stop dreaming and face my life head on.”… He was my dream. A life with him was what I fantasized about. But it was unattainable. My dreams were a fairytale that ended with a bullshit happily ever after.
I shook my head, and my tears began to fall. “I don’t believe in happily ever after. I believe that two people should stay together while they are happy, but once that disappears and you’re still whole, you should pack your shit and leave.” It’s what I believed, but not what I lived.
-- I received an ARC of this book from Give Me Books Promotions in exchange for an honest review. --
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
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